Why is it that the mind is such an amazing thing?
In this time of my sadness, I am shocked at how the mind handles emotions, feelings, thing we do and how we react.
Today (Sunday), I decided to go to work, because I couldn’t sit still at home, and was starting to scratch at the walls. So I ducked into Docklands to do some work.
Driving into the city, my mind started wondering, I don’t think I should have been driving at the time, and god only knows how I got there in one piece, but any hoo… did about 3 hours of work, and my mind was still racing, so I went for a bit of a stroll at Docklands and sat and watched the water and the world go by for a while. Watching all the happy people just made me even worse, so I just came home. Which probably was stupid too….. so what happens, I drive home, see a horse float, and break down again. Emotions are crazy!
I went to work today (Monday) and had 2 people, who really don’t know me ask if I was OK. Stupidly, I played the “yeah, I’m OK” card to which they were like, OK… what the hell is wrong. So if people who barely know me can tell that I’m not my normal self not to mention someone on the end of the phone 3 states away can tell, I guess I am really looking and sounding flat!
As much as having people around you telling you that it only gets easier, and just move on, you’re a great person you’ll find some one else and all the other nice things that friends say, sometimes as much as you want the sympathy, all you really want is someone to not give you any nice words, sit there and just shut up!
In times of need, it’s human nature to comfort those around us. Whether is helps … well that’s debatable. Right now, every time someone says that too me it just makes me feel sad and think about all the good times and wonder “what if…”
Maybe I’m off on a tangent again, maybe I’m onto something and will end up with a nobel prize? Who knows…. quite honestly who cares! lol
It all comes down to the title of this entry…. The mind works in wonderful ways…
Greg
PS: Commenting is turned on again. Please feel free to comment on my aimless ramblings. G
December 15th, 2007 at 3:14 AM
Hi Greg, Sorry to hear of your break-up. I wrote a message on myspace to you to which you never replied. So im not sure what compelled me to write this. But I felt for you when I read your blog entry & I would like very much for us to keep in contact & be good friends… do you agree? I am coming to Oz in Feb for a few wks, hope we can catch up then.. I look forward to hearing back from you… take care, Lynsey
December 15th, 2007 at 8:04 PM
Hi Lyns,
Thanks for the post. Long time no speak. Did’t get a message on MySpace, then again, I rarely do check it.
Would be great to catch up when you’re in town. Mobile number hasn’t changed so just give me a call or drop me an email to make a time.
Merry Christmas and best wishes to Mum, Aaron and Aoife.
G